For Closure

Water bellied bitter skinned
Poisoning this sacred well of easy breathing
Resentful tears strangle her heavy cheer
Mother may bite, father may wallow
They may confess and return with an angry eye
But I am never justified in my misery
Heaving exhales a childish ingrate

Her light infuses me and weaves her softness into my soul
Static filament, enraptured breath
To feel her voice embalm me

Here I lay an orphan to my soul’s relentless washing
Pounding forward a dream
The morrow’s sunrise bids close confinement
And it is not so secret that all is unwell in my boiling stone heart
I kidnap my fears, those sucker licking faces
And I chew them with my nerves
Out with the decay!
thrashing like convicts hissing for redemption
Out with the rotting!
Those maggots imperious at my skull
I pray no more to hold this burden
I bellow out my entrails
For closure I pray
I destroy my senses with hellish sobs
Drawing me nearer to my death
Here it is! Take every ounce of sponged angst as a bolt of sickness
Then my head may be cleansed of the borrowing whispers
Pandering beneath my eardrums

When tragedy’s gates vanish?
What forces step upon my melting flesh?
What forces drop their nightmares
Upon my melting flesh
Burning with urgency, I beg relief
For my peace to be pronounced